When January rolls around,
I’ve just lived through a month
crammed full of 
      emotions
      activities
      expectations
      pressures.
a whirlwind 
of messages,
experiences,
personalities,
and things 
to navigate.

When January rolls around
the last thing I need
is to hear 
IT’S TIME! 
to think about new goals 
           new to-do’s 
           new tactics 
           new strategies.

When January rolls around,
I don’t need more stuff to sign up for,
more ways to jumpstart my way to success,
more things to buy,
more calls to action
more pressure to 
                         do more
                          be more
                         create more 
                           get more 
                          live more 
                         attract more 
                             engage more 
                           achieve more.

When January rolls around
the last thing I need is 
to be told anything other than how
I’m actually already doing PRETTY GREAT with all the things being thrown at me thank you very much!

When January rolls around,
I need to recover
From December.
And maybe from the whole entire year itself.
I need to just be for a bit.

And I might need that for February as well. 
 
I might need to ebb and flow outside of the calendar year.

Sometimes, 
I place my own hand
On my own heart
As I inhale with my own breath
And say with my own voice
To my own self,
“My friend.”
And then 
as I exhale
With my own breath
I say to my own self
With my own hand on my own heart,
“My friend.”

When people are 
pushing and dictating and selling and shaming, 
I inhale 
and say with my own voice to my own self, “My friend.”
I exhale 
and say with my own voice to my own self, “My friend.”

When people are 
apparently only experiencing great fantastic things 
no setbacks struggles demotions wrinkles or outdated eyewear
they’re able to grow their own organic produce 
and still have time to achieve rock hard abs
while writing a poem a day
and running their own company
which is responsible for helping to solve some geopolitical crisis…
I inhale 
and say with my own voice to my own self, “My friend.”
I exhale 
and say with my own voice to my own self, “My friend.”

What I’m saying is,
I’m juggling a lot
And I bet you are too
and still 
almost everywhere we go
are messages 
that it’s not enough,
that we 
are not enough.

What I’m saying is
when January rolls around
and February
and every month after that
not many people
or organizations
or societal messages
go easy on us. 

Maybe when January rolls around
we go easy
on ourselves. 

*This practice of deep breathing combined with healthy self-talk is from episode 3, season 6 of The Happiness Lab podcast.